Hey hey hey its Friday once more. Looks like this is the last week I will be here in Penang. At 6.30pm today I will board my flight to KL. Thats such a great relieve.
Okie remember that shitty int, the other day. Well surprise surprise, he called for a 2nd int. hmmm... Well am just going to go with the flow. See how things goes.
I wonder if everyone counts the days to the weekend like me? How about those people who actually works on Sat too? They have such a short weekend. Isn't that bad? Well, I guess either you work or have to be self relient in terms of your ability to earn money.
Sometimes when I am day dreaming, I visualize myself as someone who works in a job that is truely easy for me and then spend the rest of the time actually doing something I like. Hmm.. no not sleeping. But maybe more to getting a hobby. Doing more sports.
I guess now I really despise my way of life in terms of my job. Its so uncertain and I have to be ready to pack and go anytime. I miss that stability in my life. The days that I can plan what to do.
But mostly I dread doing programming. I always have this thing at the back of head telling me what if i can't finish in time and then I start to panic.
I can't seem to be able to handle myself well in a stressful situation. I guess I got to learn how to relax and learn to take it easy. Everything is like a big tension for me. Everything a daunting task.
This weekend, I will be spending time reflecting and praying more - I hope. Maybe I should devote more time in helping in church. Something I have this feeling tugging at my heart about how I should help more. But something rebelious in me is placing a stop on this. I should ponder more.....
This weekend I m not going to think about it... Let next week come and then see how things goes.
Dup dup bi do!
Ciao!
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